Early Morning Mood

dammmit...EARLY morning kena kacau by so mny ppl d..first my mom..den my aunt called me..den shereen msg me..dammt!!y u ppl cant just let me sleep peacefully wei..this is ho my mood is wen sumone distrubs me in my sleeep...urghh!!!and i was dreaming..dreaming abt...hehe...dmn nice lo the dream...urrrrggghhhh!!!!!!ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!farkin pist man!!!dammit la!!haiz.......

i was reading Ch blog..dammmn..pist me even worst...since ytd i was damn upset abt him ady..wth la...i noe this seems..or its gonna be bad..but im gonna say this out wei.....im sorrie again..if i haf offended anyone la k...here goes..first of all..my world do not revolve around urs..ok..yea u maybe a good fwen to me..and as agood fwen i expect u to und me...not sudenly ask me to stop smokign den wen i ask ..and u reluctant and i keep askin u..and then u comapre urself to other wen i listen to others and all..those are my fwens..u r my clsoe fwne..the one i trust alot..andd for those hu r just my fwen..i dun wnan give a bad impression on them..so dast y i listen tot he,..as a good fen..i noe u..and i intend to hope dat u noe ym attitude..wen i do things i will do it..stop means stop..yea u also noe smoking is an addiction.s.ame as comp games and all..it takes time to stop...so yea...and wen i say i wanna go to that prom...yea true i wan us to go all as a fwen..but if i go wit a patner..y dun u wnan go as well..the thing is..i wan m fdwen oso..y u wanan get so merajuk and dun wanna go..coz i dun wnan be ur aptner instead izzit..cmon man..dun lil bit like dat oso angfry..i haf mylife oso...and i dun meand dat i dun wan u to miggle inmine..just dat.u shud noe whrs ur dustance oso..i haf my limits oso...so do u...ahhh...jonz to told me this...


"loVe can make some 1 confuse and make irrational decision or act
make them think too much till it can play their own minds. pushing other reasonable feelings aside..n only left with selfiShness
where they go the extend of desperate measures"

ok...i agree..i really do..coz sumtimes i do things witout thinking as well..but there is always a common sense..u dun think abt how ppl feel..den put urself in their shoes and think how whud u feel...dammit im sick of this d wei..ive been out into this situation since since...i dunno..since high sku wei!!!dis sarks at time...all im just sayin is...its not dat i dun wan u to be in my life...ure my pal..ure my fwen..ure one person in this world dat i turst the most..and i hope u und how i feel like how i do to u...dammit..im soooo emooo this morning..i im drinking tropical fuit juice wit martell..dammit..haha..and jonz can summroe say..lets get drunk online..apa la lu!!!urghhhh.....my left hand is abit sleepie wei...like no strenght like dat....maybe i slept onto my hand..hehe!!1..woops

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haiz.recently i dunno which wire in my head fius ..but sudenly i suddenly just tot of S lately..i dunno why oso...no jonz..im nto thiknign of goin abck togethre wit him...lol...but i m thiking how last time my whole 6 months the fun i had wit him..the part of this year i enjoy the most...how dat i gave so much into the relatiosmnhip..and yet i made a mistake..haiz...why la why...maybe wut i m now..myabe is a punishament to me..since dat day he told me he dun noe whether he likes me anymore...i broke dwn into tears..and iddint noe wut i haf done...but its true wut his fwen told me..i cant hurt him again.how i did to him 2 times already..if i was goin back wit him..i mtie gonna hurt him again..but den again...he told me he didnt mind so long hes being back wit me..sigh..pretty sad la...thiking if i ve never never had left him..i whudnt feel like this rite..yea true its my biggest regret..but maybe god had plan this for me...i mean..maybe i shud borke off wit him..and god whud plan sumntg betta for me..but yet..i till havent find the outcome la..haiz..he has move on wit my ife..and i guess i did too...but time anbd time again..sumtimes i do miss the gurl i was wen i was him...

oh hsyt man..i dunno y i cant breathe nicely..omg!!!..dammit..maybe to early in the morning im driking d..woops..hehe..okla..is top here for now..got to study my chem!!cioz ppll!!!!!
and again!!!im sorrie if i haf offended anyone ok...im just pist...!!!=/...
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