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Date / Time : Monday, November 20, 2006 / 11:57 PM
THE START OF AN ENDING woke up ytd..feeling sleepie..ahha..dunno why...den wope up..didnt eat till i wen mv...got rdy..to go out..den met ash and pass her the dress...den walk around waitin for shereen to come ...den we walka round..are in struddle...i ate my turkey ham cheese sanwish..aha..nice rite girl..i told u lo..and den she order erm..mango cheese cake..which sarks like shyt..hahaa!!!loll...den walk around..den we took a cab to a saloon near my hse..and she wen and do her hair..my god..i was bored to death..den waited for jay to come and pick us up..den..wen off..wen home..den..den..we both two girls..dunno doin wut...stoning..haha..den got rdy.haha..both of us..cam whoring..opputting make up and all..lol..i diddnt noe y i dress so much oso..not like im goin for the prom..lol..but i wanted to dress for sumone la.hehe...den drop shereen off and wen ac..foos a while..saw hsiang and the hole of mufy fella..haha.suprise...!!!lol..den wen to holiday vialla....sigh..the saddest moment of my life..is to say bye to him..i wanted to hug him..but i always go tears in my eyes..so yea..i walk off...that moment..wen i saw him..he look..he look so good..i have not seen him for so long..and dat instant he took my breath away..he was just...just...magnificant..yea..i dunno wen im gonna see him again..sigh...been emo since last nite till now...dunno y oso..=(..
IS WHAT YOU SEE REAL?? Everyday we pass by everyone...but we never know what are their feelings...coz feelings..we cant touch or see feelings..we onli will notice the big thing..but never realise the small things...there maybe your friends out there..who is happy...being joyful and all..but do you think that whatever they feel is true...dat whatever the show to you..a smile and all is true..maybe its fake..forcing out a smile..so dat no one will be trouble....these are all the small lil things that make a whole lots of diffrent..i regret at times not to know how my friends feell..seeing the outsifde but not the inside...not knwoing that deep inside them..they feel pain..loneliness...sorrow.. so for all sad and lonely blogers out der...if ure being sad..and alone..and everything around you turns to dissapoint you..never stop believing that your friends are alwaysa round you...the more you keep it inside the more its gonna grow even worst...take it from me,...for the pass few month i have forcing and telling myself that everthing is gonna be alrite..but deeply i know the more it is..the more its gonna be worst..now..i haf made the huge mistkaes..by avoidin it..thinking that everything is gonna be alrite..but no...things got even more bad..its like u boiling water...sooner or later the water is gonna boil and if u dun turn off that switch..its gonna cause more havock.. and for those out der..if your a fwen...always keep and eye to ur close buddies..these small things means alot to them..they may be happy at times...but sumtimes all they nid is a lil attentsion..dun leave them out...dun let them feel unwanted..things like these makes a diffrent..everyone wants sumone to care aviout them..to notice a small change in them..these is wut u call a great fwen..if u noe ur fwen is lookin troubled or so..dun forget to lend a helping hand..
