LET LOSEE..LET GO...

hey guys...its been a while...been stressing over exams..another one more week..and my misery comes...aiteee..anyways..ive been posting post about my sats and all..lets try sumtng diff now..im feeling a little peeeky...i just dun wanna tok abt last nite..ive ben push my a bitch...thrown a cup at me..vomiited on..neglected by him..again!!!...haiz...so yea..lets skip dat...


im emoo...very emo...i dunno y..but yea...y am i always falling for stupid guys...wrong guys...maybe its a punishment for me...maybe punishment wut i did to jon...or maybe sean...lol....just..y must it always happen to me...first it was all..den not him...wut is it wit me and these type of guys??i haf no idea...all i just wan a good time..i dun mean "good"..but i meant good..normal good time...and this haf to happen....i regretted going ytd...shud haf just stayed at home..den all these wont happen..den i wont feel like dis...maybe im just not satisfy dat he chud just.push me me away...maybe im just not happy dat i cant get sumtn i wan..i mean..sighh..i onno wut i mean actually..just dat..look at her..she broke off wit one..and now she got a new one..which both treat her like jewel...i envy her sumtimes..i really do....
just bare wit me aite.e...feeling really emmmooo..

its like..sumtimes i walk dwn the street hoping to bumb into him...stupid rite..but in the end..i bump into ppl...i dun intend to see..like...on fri..walking dwn rundle with claud..and i bump into al..i was like...wth...claud was like saying..

"the more u dun wanna bump into them..u will always do"..

i find dat rite though...but yea...i just wanna..let losee...just wanna..ahh..dun wanna feel like dis..i find alot of time things doesnt go my way..it always go sum other way..always....sumtimes i just wanna give up...just ...just give up..im too tired...always constanly fighting for stuff i wan..for once..i just wan everything to fall in place...just wan..
but wat the heck rite..lifes a bitch...

15 more days till i leave...i really cant wait...i wanna see new things...be in a new enviroment...i wanna go to the beach....yeaaa...
sorrie for the emo blog..prolly having my mensis soon..mood' s a bit fark up...well..i guess..hes gonna go...cant put up wit this shyt every wkk..

anyhooooow...im off to study rite now..boringg...but yea..got one paper on tues..eeekks!!..

toodless!