NUMB..WILL THIS LAST?hey guyss.....sigh..internet not ere yet..im goin crazyy....im sick as well..been walking in the rain to work and back from work...sigh...
had the flu..the cough..aner..shyt..and i got work tmrw...probably call in sick..ekeke..its
officially a month since i started work..and its been at least a month and a week since i got ere...time pass fast??well..not really..how am i gonna last for
another 5 months man...trying trying...haha..guess wut..im in the cafe..and im sitting
directly opposite this cute gy..he is making hot choc...fuiyoh...hot hot..haha......toking abt guys..sigh
..i onno y
till now i really cant get over him...i mean...i dunno him dat well..buit yet...he still lingers on my mind..crazyy rite./..i onli see him once a week..an..we dun really tok..but still..sighh..sumtime i do wonder..wut if things were diff...will i make it..will we make it..but...sumtimes i really dun und..i know its stupid thinking this way..probably coz im single..im bored in this pkace..
its just driving me to think all these silly thoughts..i onno..maybe i do wan someone...maybe i do feel lonely...maybe all this while im just tryin to make metter..but deep myself but dee dwmn...i really feeel..in need..of that feeling of belong again..
or maybe..
after all these stupid experiences...i just tryin to push everyone away..sigh.....this is stupid..rellly am...god..plz..let this 5 months passs past
..i wanna go home..i miss my fwens..my family...my home...im tryin ..really hard to stay strong...really am..sumhow i dunno wen will i actually break down...one day..sooon..i guesss....claud is now in hamilton..i hope she has great time..and the 2 girls r coming ere soon..cant wait..at least i got them..rather than..er..yea...crap..its raining again..urghhh..god help me..
anyways..i i off now...ntg much to say..toodlles!!
ps..my dilema has been solve..wohoo!!hHAHA
