SEVERE BREAK DOWN

i feel stupid some way..i feel like im left out...i feel like im anti social..but i try..i try to click..just dat i cant..work enviroment is not helping..ntg is..ive been working day and nights to keep myself out of this misery..but yet..i still feel like dis...i dun click wit them..maybe coz they r all canto speaking..i mean..its been like this wit all my fwens..wen they need someone...they come to me..after tat..they just dun bother abt me...its been like this..n still is..i try..i really try..i try so hard..but somehow igive up..its like..i take 4 steps front..and 3 steps back..urgh..i hate this feeling..work..its stupid...its very stupid..ppl der r so farkin cocky...idots..i just..urgh..i cant wait for this 3 months to pass...was tokin to 4 of my best high sku fwens...i seirously miss them loads..some haven seen them since high sku was over..some..a year...then my ausmat fwens...urgh...making my cry...

then ere come alfie...man..i really wanna kill him..really killl him..he nearly lure me into his trap...was getting der..till i found out..his not all true...he told me..he is seirous...he wans this to work..shyt!!!he has been sleeping arnd since he was born....mutha farker..i really wanna takng revenge so much..but how??i dunno how...maybe i shud just leave..this would b the last time im gonna let him come near me...urghh!!!!!!!!!geramnya!!!really cant do this..too much preasure on the same time..

weather ere beeen crazy..it has not stop rainig for 2 days straight..i mean it...it stop now...but its cloudy...so i guess its gonna rain soon again..its cold as welll..lol..sheraton was flooded bladly...guest had to walk without their tongs or shoes to their rooms...my socks were wet...very!!...wth man!!...highways were block...all the way to cairns...tsk tsk..[pity those who need to go back all the way to cairns and back to port douglas to work...=/..

anyways...im eatin my breakfast now..hope it doesnt rain today..so i can go to twn n get my grocerries...!!*fingers cross*