IT HAS COME

well, its officially my last few hours in Kl before I fly off back to Aus. Time passed sooo dmn fast when i was down here. It feels like i was here onli for a week than a month. I hate this soo dmn much. So damn unfair!

Anyways, i was hanging out wit reen n cheese on monday n tues. I drove all the way to Monash den to Help to company sweets den back to Mv for the pass two days. haha.. So free right. Petrol free!lol!
Ytd i watch Journey to the Center of the earth with babe n chee hoe ..the movie is good, but i miss like kinda quater of it. haha..den later at night, i was hanging out wit sweets in MV. I was soo dmn tired actually. Like REALLY TIRED. My legs were asleep. I was like a walking zombi. Later we were going to watch Hellboy with chee hoe. haha...well..i was soo tired...before the movie i was already sleeping. So..dont bother askin me how was it. I was awake onli in a few parts and thats it. lol..=(tired sial!. I wen to his place after hang out a bit. Came back arnd 4 am. woopppsiee...mum knew abt it!haha..

I have 11 more hours before my plane leave. Can i leave without my plane ??? Class is starting next week already. Omg!!farking fast !!...its gonna be sooo dmn ocld in Adel right now. urghh!!

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I feel bad. I feel sad. I feel like the God is playing on me. But what can i do? face reality rite? well doing it righ now. yet i still cant stop feeling bad..i shudnt have done this ..i shudnt have put it tru..everyones been askin me the same qestions..

"y do u wanna b wit sumone in a short time"
"you playing wit his heart izzitt?"
"shudnt man..few weeks get into a rship"

tell me sumtng i dindt know
all i can do is smile and sigh...
im feeling really selfish in alot of ways..wanting him to hang on..but at the same time..wanting him to let go...of coz..the most humane thing to do is to let go..still wishing it was more than this..
i just hope one thing out of all this..i just hope wtv happens after this...it wont end up like how jon n i did...it was sooo fark up...
watever happens happens i guess..watever will b will b...

i gtg now..still need to pack the last shyt in!
c ya guys soon!



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