THE GOODBYE KISS

ytd...was boring!B-O-R-I-N-G!!!!...fark it man!!..omg!!wen to red...i didnt know y..just dat..my mood...was..urgh..i didnt wanna drink either!!But i did...anyhow..didnt even dance much...mostly standing arnd...sulking...sighh..red was...boring..they had this bikini contest thinggie...and it drag till dmn long....urghh..anyways den hop to iso...even worst!!no one..aiyoo....anyways..at least i got see him..=)..yea was pretty happy in the way..but...gotta stay strong..lopl..den wen back to red...urgh..drank..i saw alot of ppl i know..dance...stand arnd..i wanted to go back to iso so badly..sighh...

i was alrdy in a bad mood..all i just wanted to do is drink..but then..i cant..i dun wanna get a massive hangover again!so basically..i wen abck to iso again..i know claud wasnt happy..coz she wanted to stay in red..and i wanted to go in iso..i felt bad in the way..very bad..i saw nigel..i saw adrian..lol.....
i was hanging arnd wit Him...for a while...yeah..

lets not get into the details..im getting rly alrdy...u know sumtimes..wen sumthing happen..and..it was kinda unexpected..and u mind kinda play it over n ovr again...like it hit a replay button..and it doesnt stop..
wut happen ytd...seriously..was..just..i dunno..out the blue..i didnt expect it..and i dun wan it in the way.coz now..im thinking alot..omg...the feeling...suddenly time just stop..for a sec...my heart pump like mad...and..i just chudnt..i dunno..just chudnt explain the feeling...i hate it that ti happen i really do...though it sounds bullshyt...but..i rly do hate it for happening...

anyways..lets get back to the nite..so yea..after iso wen back to red...and den we were suppose to hea dback..wen adam had a call there was a fight in iso..so we wen back in agaiun..omg!!hoping here n der..seriously sucks!!..
den..claud n i sat there for 15 to 20 mins..wen out..stood there for another 20 mins..n left...frking hell!!wasted my time..thought chud see fight summore..wasted!!!..pffttt

wen home..shower..and here m i..blogging..i got pics of picss...

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ytd..was gonna be the last time im heading out..prolly whud be the last tijme..coz i haf exams alrdy..ytd whud prolly be the last time me seeing him...ytd whud probably the last of everything...
this whud b the time for me tp isolate myself..and try to move on...i hafta,..i know i haf...