HEALING SPREEEE...

i wen to church last nite...there was this healing session..omg..the things i saw...i..i really dunno wut to say..to believe it even though its rite before my eyes...or...no matter what ..there is always science behind it...im always a science person..i always believe in the walks of life..there is always science to back everything up..but some ppl say..'science ONLY DO certain things..and there comes God"..well..maybe..i dunno..
well basically healing session abt..God healing ur soul..God comes into the preacher..or anyone that belives in FAITH..can heal anyone...and yea..ytd nite..i tell u..alot of miracle happening..there was this woman..she was on the wheal chair..she was shot long ago..an she chudnt walk..ytd,..wen the healing session was on..the pastor was like..praying over her...and suddenly..she stood up..and started walking..i was....speechless..amaze...my heart..just stop there for a moment..i was...omg!!shytt!!!....but then again..theres a lil nudge in me saying..maybe she chud always walk..just dat she didnt try...she didnt have FAITH in herself..maybe..what all these healing session is...u just gotta believe in urself...i dunno..sounds....funny..but yea..there was another case..this old woman lost her hearing 19 years ago..shes 74 this year...it wad her right ear if im not mistaken..den...the pastor started the healing..prayed over her..and slwly..she chud hear...tat was a lil ..just a lil off..coz..wen the pastor was whispering in her deaf year..the mike was on..and duhh!!its loud...though she covered her left ear..she of coz still can hear..but ...well..she chud..so..i just God healed her..wut really lifted me up was seeing this young boy...hes diabetic..his sugar level is 10.2 i think..cant rmbr..after healing..he wen and tested himself..and he was 5.3...(normal human suagr level)..dat..was..i dunno..i suddenly i chill run through my body..n i told myself..dat GOD>..dat is Him..and his older bro was there..he started crying...thanking God for healing him..and..i was..touch..so touch..i started.. tearing...hahah..but now my question is..is that gonna b permenant...is that boy now negetive for diabetics???whud like to know the outcome..

funny that is...i wen in with a lil doubt in this healing session..i came out from there..my doubts wen high..and...a lil of course too..i dunno..i mean I do believee God has the capability to do wondrss things...but...i always tot dat..its only God himself that ables to do dat...urgh...funny..but...tea..i sat dwn there...while everyone was in front healing..and i look arnd..ppl were crying..i see their faces...the joy..the sadness..the relieve..everything..and i was lifted...if only i could be one of them..if only i would stand up and let them pray over me..and heal me from all my pain..but i dunon my ass was glued to the seat..and mind u..the seat was hard!!!=/..
later on..i wen home..and slept..i was dead tired..had onli 5 hrs of sleep..blrady hell!!>..
not only that..DAY light savings in on!!fark!!so now Adelaide is 2.5 hrs faster than KL...omg!!i previous sleep!!urghhh!!!

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he texted me ytd...sumhow..my heart lept soo fast..but i told myself..control!...i gotta forget abt him..i hafta to do it...i must do it!...
my fwens recently are worried...why??they are worried im never gonna settle dwn..but cmon..im 20!!...but come to think abt it...i had my chance before...sean..i was stupid enough to break up..i was foolish..till now,..everyone thinks hes the perfect guy..he was the guy for me...but me..DUMB jen has to be an idiot to pass that chance out...lol...but yea...dat was biggest..THE BIGGEST regret i haf...stuides dun even count that much....

will i never settle??yea maybe i will..i dunno..i never saw myself settling dwn wit anyone...or the possilities of me settling dwn wit sumone...prolly its not in the card for me...prolly not..

but anyhow..things will change..just hope it does for me....anyways..im gonna go study my accouting..exam on wed...yikess!!>..
cya!!


I just wanna say Im sorry..I know i hurt you bad..i know i did you wrong...but...its best for u to know than me keeping secrets away from u..worst if i Do..u'll hurt even longer than ever...i know u can do it..i know u can move on..all u gotta do is have a lilttle Faith in u..believe u can..and the best thing out of all these chaos...is that feeling..the feeling of freedom...the feeling that now..ure free from all chains..from all pain....
u know im here..u know im always here...take on step at a time..no hurry...theres always a better one out there...

so all i got to say is Im sorry