HAPPY CHRISTMAS

Like every year, christmas is one of all the celebrations that i love alot. So this year, i came back for christmas hoping to spend it with my love ones and fwens knowing the fact that i wone here for a long time after that. So the gang headed to MOS to celebrate it. Well i was hopin MOS is gonna be pack wit ppl/...and guys of coz!duh!but then..omg!!its wed nite..ioh my...should have known better...well.fark it...make the best out of it...as time comes..wohoo..msges came flooding in...the onli msg wanted..i didnt get..well..heck...reen got drunk...ok..tipsy...urgh..wanted to kill her so much!!duff...but...it was good..i was hungry by 2 sumthing.wen mamak..and then...headed home..yes...well..stuff in between..i shall not say..i haf heaps of pics..wit my new tatt too...u guys wanna see..?=)

anyways..im sitting now at old twn with chee hoe onlining..yes..sad rite..on christmas day..well..wut to do...no one ajakout...=(..sadd...

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maybe its true..sumtimes i do hopefor sumthing that will never happen..i expect sumthing i can never get...could it be true dat..we never want what others give us..but sumhow a rather we ask for sumthing else..or maybe...the things we get is not wut we want and they just dun und it..
i never felt as low and as shytty as i was ytd nite..the whole half an hr i was in the car..i just could nt stop it..i just couldnt...it hit me..i never felt like that in a long time..or worst..i never was like dat ..ever...sumhow..i lost a piece of myself..but on the other note..i lost sumthing that i didnt get..didnt have..will never have..i really wanna run back...i wana haf the piece back..but..i dun wanna b in that pot hole i was in ytd...how many times i told myself i hit rock bottom...i think ytd nite..was the time i really hit rock bottom..and i went 6 ft under..
i dunno whr am i gonna go frm hre...i dunno how am i gonna deal wit this..wondering is this the only way out..wondering is this the end..
but..isnt it tr,rather end it now then later rite..but why...but why sumhow i feel like sumthing is still pulling me back..maybe i shud find a deal breaker..i cant help but to see the phrase over again and agin..i just couldnt help playing the messages..its the after shock thats making me like this...oh god..tell me wut to do..show mea sign...my farking iTunes is playing all the emo songs..and its on shuffle..

i got 2 more weeks ere..might as well make the full use of it rite?enjoy while i can...i just wish there was another way to deal wit this...sighh..

i shall go off now before this post get any more emo..

once again MERRY XMAS GUYS!!..