FAILURE...?? DEDICATION??

first day..SUCK LIKE CRAP!..I HATE MY JOB SO MUCH!!...actually i should have not work in a small porperty..being a conceirge is like being a "kuli"...omg man..u do everything..and as for me..im tine...bags do not work well with me..omg man!..and cars...shyt...parking them..omg!today i sat beside Paul ( my mentor and he was working in Port Douglas with me as well, he was at porters..lol small world)..he was parking..and i was fdreaking out too..mahai!!shyt wei..how wei how??!!!tokin abt it..giving me chills too..dmammitt...i sumhow feel like giving up...i feel like im a total failure...sighh..

work sucksss!!on top of that...my Front office manager is leaving..so right now..i dunno whetehr am i going to the desk and work or not...aduhai!!...sigh..well i will try to commence my work till the end of this month and we'll see how...dad say if i cant do it..tok to the manager..no point for me forcing this..but..wth...just do it..i rather do it..try my best...haiz...

i just pray to god each nite dat he will give me strenght and the courage to carry on my job..god..plz..on the other hand..im tryin to see whtehr they need help in the FnB area..i wanna finish my 600 hrs fast and oso earn extra money..um hmmm=)..

tmrw im off...lucky...after all the trauma i had today..i neeed to digest it slowly....

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i miss him dearly..been thinking alot everyday...thinking abt the future...role plays in my head...funny ones too..lol!but...for this..i'll take it day by day...i always wonder whether will there be a decent clear road for us...always wonder...ponder..

i miss them too...pink n ling...faster come..=(..eh but i cant confirm wit u my roaster..i mite work eh..lol!..reen whr r u??!!never see u online=(...i miss u babe!