HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR...

here goes another celebration..a festive season..a celebration which i am gonna miss..away from fwens and family..2 years conxecutively..i have miss this..=(..

i dunno how to b happy..but oh well..make the use of it huh

well my life here..usual..work..suck..work ...suck!!nothing diff..waiting for another month for the rest to come back here...aduh..

koon, pink, ling, carl, babyM, jamie, sam, fred( i knw u read my blog..bugger leave a msg wil u!!) reen, Lina,..Happy Chinese New Year and wish your family for me!..=D

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im tired..i need a break...i need to be look after..im sick of being the strong one in every rship..and im not only tokin abt girl boy rship..but in fwenship...im too tired to b the stone..the model for everyone..for once..i whud love to put my leg up and be taken care off..im tired of looking after everyone back..im tired of the complains..the anger..everything..!!i tired of making decision for everyone..why cant they make it for me?

im looking after myself here..my job..i cant handle fights..complaints..not rite now..not now when im adjusting to things...

once for all..i wan sumone to look after me...not physically..but..mature enough to think for themselvesand all..i wan to b pempered not in terms of money and all..but..caring me..

but sumhow..i will never get it..why? coz everytime..i am always the Mum, the Dad, the stone, the brick, the strong one in every rship..

why me....??

all the sudden i tot of her..i miss her so much..she use to be my brick and stone..my pillar to lean on..a fwen..a mum..a sister..a diary..everything..i miss how watever she tells me..everythign seems soo right..whenever i am in trouble..or in dilema..she seems to knw every right word..

maybe i count of her too much..and all the sudden im put in the position she was..and i cant handle it..i cant seem to wrap my hands arnd..

but..nonetheless..for once..i wan to be the one to be taken care off...